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im currently doing my intern at the moment... at this centre under some mobile company(not mentioning names here!!) and like..i was working to my death lately...not sleeping till late hours..and only for less than three hours ..with all those work that needs to be done... with also the last minute changes that need to be done due to the customer's whims... ;) it is am experience.. but i am..sick of story boardsss!!!!! and viideo scriptsssssss im going home to dayyy yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy holidays ...even if its only 5 days i dont care at least its a holidayyy!!!! yayyy *The enviroment here : very nice the people here : nearly all are nice..- a few ppl..but who can say..nothings 100 percent right?? *The projects they give : absurd amount the pay : worth the absurd amount...at least for now.. *The benefits : learn new software( soon..not now) and also..i kwno how to do story boarding quite well..plus how to push myself to work although i am in zombie land.. *New skill : hmm..strange..but i know video scripts now.. ;) hahaha plus some presentation skills..though i ..erm..am bad at it esp when i din get sleep.. think...repeated words. example : honestly, r's turn to w's..so on.. *The downs: miss my friends..feel soo lonely.. :( miss my free time..miss my sleep... miss my family..dogsss.... hot water!!! and..jeannnsssssss *The must : appear not crazy...and neat and..presentable.. (hmmm..scratch scratch) *The need : more time in a day please...else..please slow the time down.. *The dont need : work load..or assignments..one or two is enough.. *The interest : ang moh guys..but none around..except the prof..but..erm..a little too old for me *The perks : i jsut got my payyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!! and...when you get the work done!!..like my storybaords...are gone..after version 6..yayyayayayay *jumps in joy *The downs : requests are made for a change of idea...and sudden change of customer's mind when you have finalised the previous idea .. *The in between perks and downs : drink loads of water....eat food... *Current stuff that were bought while in internship : a rug..a pillow. food, harddisk, ram,shirt,slacks(only one),navel rings...earrings..neccesities...magazine.. *Stuff that needs to be bought : more clothes please..and ..plus some low cutting slacks..and erm..shirts? oh mentioned it..hehe and ice creammmmmmmmmmmm *Currently thinking : i need to pack..i need to sleep....im goign home..no story board...i dont knwo what to think no more..ah..will there be ang mohs later at klia?? winks.. ok..this is for now.. but..i miss you guys...muakssss,,an hugggsss.....you guys take care kkkk??? love, gothwingedjewel *currently not in shiny mode..need to get a polish..*

im currently doing my intern at the moment... at this centre under some mobile company(not mentioning names here!!) and like..i was working to my death lately...not sleeping till late hours..and only for less than three hours ..with all those work that needs to be done... with also the last minute changes that need to be done due to the customer's whims... ;) it is am experience.. but i am..sick of story boardsss!!!!! and viideo scriptsssssss im going home to dayyy yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy holidays ...even if its only 5 days i dont care at least its a holidayyy!!!! yayyy the enviroment here : very nice the people here : nearly all are nice..- a few ppl..but who can say..nothings 100 percent right?? the projects they give : absurd amount the pay : worth the absurd amount...at least for now.. the benefits : learn new software( soon..not now) and also..i kwno how to do story boarding quite well..plus how to push myself to work although i am in zombie land.. new skill : hmm..strange..but i know video scripts now.. ;) hahaha plus some presentation skills..though i ..erm..am bad at it esp when i din get sleep.. think...repeated words. example : honestly, r's turn to w's..so on.. the downs: miss my friends..feel soo lonely.. :( miss my free time..miss my sleep... miss my family..dogsss.... hot water!!! and..jeannnsssssss the must : appear not crazy...and neat and..presentable.. (hmmm..scratch scratch) the need : more time in a day please...else..please slow the time down.. the dont need : work load..or assignments..one or two is enough.. the interest : ang moh guys..but none around..except the prof..but..erm..a little too old for me the perks : i jsut got my payyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!! and...when you get the work done!!..like my storybaords...are gone..after version 6..yayyayayayay *jumps in joy the downs : requests are made for a change of idea...and sudden change of customer's mind when you have finalised the previous idea .. the in between perks and downs : drink loads of water....eat food... current stuff that were bought while in internship : a rug..a pillow. food, harddisk, ram,shirt,slacks(only one),navel rings...earrings..neccesities...magazine.. stuff that needs to be bought : more clothes please..and ..plus some low cutting slacks..and erm..shirts? oh mentioned it..hehe and ice creammmmmmmmmmmm currently thinking : i need to pack..i need to sleep....im goign home..no story board...i dont knwo what to think no more..ah..will there be ang mohs later at klia?? winks.. ok..this is for now.. but..i miss you guys...muakssss,,an hugggsss.....you guys take care kkkk??? love, gothwingedjewel *currently not in shiny mode..need to get a polish..*

hey..been a long time ...i know..sorry..like i have been busy..and connection problems... just like having to find my internship placements and all..i didnt know things liek this are able to get one down so fast, and then now i know that it can. Espeacially when you are surrounded by those who have gotten their placements already and you havent.I am not putting the blame or anyone , or doing anythig sadistic like that..i mean to those who got it..i really am happy for you. I'm just wondering whats wrong with me that all. (or maybe there is just nothing wrong with me, maybe its just wrong timing and stuff like that) so anyways, i woke up with a grey cloud over my head, the same one that i am having at the moment. Maybe thats the reason to my feeling over the internship matter... or maybe its just me thats having problems with it. like the indecisiveness on what or where to do it...yes its been a long time i know. and i also know that we change through time.. so lets hope for the best (changing mood to a better one as we speak here) and like i just want to go out and shop...and sigh...i have no one to accompany me.eh rhis reminds me..today is the 12th..that means that my friends are down from my hometown...and i bet they plan to go clubbing later at cuba...sigh it would be rude to just go shopping with them and then Not go clubbing there.. like i dont really like the place...it feels a bit..erm..too ah leindish there.. i prefer places like nouvo and all those.. i have this sudden obsession to buy a puppy...i think i need to buy one..not a sudden obsession afterall isnt it?grins but like being away from animals too long has brought me into thinking that this is the main reason why im sinking so low in my moods...its jsut that i have recently been in contact with my friend's rabbit which she is keeping at the condo..and so it brought this craving for a pet to me too..:( anyways..i think i shall end this depressing entry.. to the next garantied for an at least more cheerful entry than this... tatas

its been..3 or 4 weeks..and im still coughing here.. not my fault.. its just that..the ice looks so tempting everytime i see it... i jsut removed my make up ..eww..all oily on my face..or at least it feels that way to me.. was putting on globs of stuff on my face for her to shoot me..not with a gun...with a camera mind you.. and then like since the sun went down so fast..like what it usually does when you need it.. so there was no light..and aiya had to close the shooting session early... kecian here..i took too long to make up i guess... and last night i had my photo session... and ooooo..god...i didnt know those pics would turn out the way they did..at least those topless ones...nononono...not really topless..i had something covering my front..so..im only erm...wearing a backless shirt.. and it came out....explicit is all i can say...(im wearing jeans too btw..) i mean the other photos were not that..naked like..but there wa sone that was like..god.. anyways..i've stashed it somewhere..no one will find it..nor will they get the negatives..i plan to..scribbe some stuff on the negative so that it can never be used again... ha come to think of it..how would they know if its me..since it only shows the back? so no..no one can black mail me with that either(to those who are thinking of it) *grins* anyways..loads of thanks aya for helping me click the camera..:) grins..im sure you must have like..had your eyes popped out when i told you what i wanted .. sorry gomen.. and you know..looking at all those blogs that my friends have,,,i think mine looks..plain..:(..will have to do something about it lkately.. sigh.. afterall..being a creative multimedia student..it should..be no...hard task right???(i hope so...:P) hehehe well.its jsut that sometimes i come out with weird ideas..and weird arrangements..and then..to upload it..i usually have some problems with that.anyways... :D i just have to find something that i really really like and then..poof....get it done.. yes..thats the spirit... and i hope the spirit stays till i finish creating one... and internships coming...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....... god..makes me feels old.. liek im gonna graduate soon..... im going to miss being a student..i want to be a studentttttttttttttt...though not forever.. i just wonder if i would ever get a job.. hai.. such an internet illiterate person like me..(hope i spell it correctly..) okiela.. i think i got to go get a bath for myself liao... :) huggies..nights all

12 jan 2003 last night..i injured myself with the ceiling fan... i was standing on the bed..and was flinging my conforter to air it.. and then suddenly...aaaa (one guess on what happened guys...) yes..a ke thang sound of bone cracking metal... i was too stunned to do anything..but to sit.. and then too scared even to peek at my finger... and then the pain came...aaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww so i then took a peek...amd by then my finger was already sweellling... and the dirt that i thought was smudged there..was actually bruises forming.,.. thank goodness for my conforter...else my finger would have been chopped off.. even icing it hurts.. well..i guess that was the reward for trying to swish my comforter thinking im one of the elves..trying on the green cloak(my comforter has green patterns in it)..and it doesnt really help that i just rewatched the extended version of the director's cut of lord of the rings before that... (beware: watching lotr might bring unwanted and unfamilir imagination and also behaviour in the viewers..) allright...:)..will write next...,if the connection at this place stops getting in a huge mess..,asap..

12 jan 2003 last night..i injured myself with the ceiling fan... i was standing on the bed..and was flinging my conforter to air it.. and then suddenly...aaaa (one guess on what happened guys...) yes..a ke thang sound of bone cracking metal... i was too stunned to do anything..but to sit.. and then too scared even to peek at my finger... and then the pain came...aaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww so i then took a peek...amd by then my finger was already sweellling... and the dirt that i thought was smudged there..was actually bruises forming.,.. thank goodness for my conforter...else my finger would have been chopped off.. even icing it hurts.. well..i guess that was the reward for trying to swish my comforter thinking im one of the elves..trying on the green cloak(my comforter has green patterns in it)..and it doesnt really help that i just rewatched the extended version of the director's cut of lord of the rings before that... (beware: watching lotr might bring unwanted and unfamilir imagination and also behaviour in the viewers..) allright...:)..will write next...,if the connection at this place stops getting in a huge mess..,asap..

bleached egg..thats what i ate yesterday..a whole half of it.. and..i was trying to nap a little...since i was looking like a zombie with puffy eyes that seem to have shrunk to the size of peas... but then..some overly concerned mum was like...(not my mum!!) was like waking me up every few minutes demanding the safety of people. anywys...it was so hot today..and stuffy..so thinking of a bath..but am jsut too lazy to move there..and its just nine something.. and poor me feels soo sleepy and tired.. :( and i just got informed that i have very low job prospects.. and...well..luckily im in a sleepy slumber mood..else i would be jumping around now..hah..to spend all the money and not getting anything back.. my song writing has gone to an..abrupt stop.. and i just remember that i am to g through some flower test that aya mentioned so here i go..grins

ha... i hate him.. i really do.. grrrrr...though since im such a saint...i wont do any harm to him..im not as..sneeky as someone like that...that idiot floor dirt dust creeping idiot who just throws marks around without caring and thinking hes king...and then missing all classes...that idiottttttttttttt by the way guys...im a philosopher... hah,.,.,as if that matters...it might matter sometimes i suppose...BUT at the moment./....it DOESNT!!!!!!!!! hah i wonder if he would understand it if i said hes a mean spirited ****ing AS*ho*e, chicken shitted b*st*rd.. hmmm.. hah i bet he doesnt... hahahahahhahaha (well..give me a little credit here for trying to humour myself...) oh well.. im here just to grumble bout that idiot who has a four letter name... anyways..:D im allright already... take cares...

ha.. results are out.. and i didnt do as well as i did..i mean i did worse that i thought i would have.. and if corporate design is the one that pull me down... hah i will totally jump around man anyways... looking at the way things are...i totally need this extended , self declared holiday that i am giving myself... grins... sigh..what would holidays do... hahahahha another extra...erm...15 days of hols? but with weekends and hols in between..its only 8 days of missing... just bathed all puppies...all 3 of them.. and they are being soo notty.. running here and there... biting everythinhg anf fighting...aaa i feel like a mother man to them... they argue also i marah.. ish ok la... laters

ah..its...one am.. and surprisingly...for the first time in ages...im feeling so sleepy.. i jsut thought of some ideas that i want to sketch.. grins.. but always it just seems that there is either no time..or like there is just too little time..or i only have time to do something else than what i wanna sketch... but... i want to make full use of this hols man... grins.. sleep all i can...(if i can...) since i seem to have plans on all around... and like thats why i have been busy... hmm... like also not to mention that i have three puppies to keep me in time.. all right..i think i will end this here today.. will write m ore laters..

ahhh...its holidays... and...im sooooooooooooooooooo.....erm..in the need of sleep.. and i havent been much sleeping.. since went to thailand for two days... then got back.. and out for some dinners and teas... grins.. anyways...i got to go.. puppies are running all over..and they are soooooooooooooo cute...and flyffy... ops.. k..better go before it chews something off.. tas.. HAPPY HOLS EVERYONE>>AND SELAMAT HARI RAYA

Imagine,..this is how i felt..when i saw the essay questions for my paper... more like..i feel like sitting on the floor..and kicking the floor and wailing and howling... oh principles of animation..why didnt you come out....only one...squah and stretch... wait till i squash and stretch those who set the paper only they know a.. huh,,jahat..teruk MEANNIESSSSSSSS!!!! oh well.. anyways..tried to asnwer the best i could.. i boy cott mayaa...boy cottt...(except when i need to use it la..) and now..lets see..need to do this assignment...the one on animating my dwarvecave men i currently..makaning maggie instant cup..havent eaten the whole day,, hah..i think i know what will make me feel better..sleep..and..sushiiiiiiiiiiiii grins sleepy o..sigh..but still have to finish this cup of noodles... sometimes it feels like youre soo tired..all you wanna do is to sleep... but you cant coz something is there and you need to do.. what am i talking about...!! of course you know how it feels like..ish ish ish anyways..what i wanted to say was....errr....sushi is good?..i think it's that kua ok la..anyways..wishing all you g uys the best for this finals exams..:) one down..one more to goooooooooooo..............

i want to take a....bath... but my problem is...its too cold.. i notice my sleeping patterns lately.. its..sleep late late...then wakie late too..not too good.. neways..i must get my bath. its vital.. though im finding ways to warm myself up now so it will be easier to bath.. why dont we create somethign that can get ride of all those dust and dirt on our bodies? just press a button..and voila..clean again k la..nak mandi liao..and sleepy a little liao.. :) till my next important jots

i am currently trying to do 4 things at a time.. reading Magician by raymond e feist...chatting..drinking..and drying my hair.. yesterday..i got attacked by this beetle... (wat is this with them anyways??!!!) it flew to my face as i was about to sleep..and hung on my lips..bit my lips too..while i tyry to brush it off.. so i had to grab it and throw it away...(away somewhere ..in my room still..) i had.grins..egg mayo again today...whooopeee..at tesco..i tell you theirs seems to be the freshest..even the sweet sauce there taste nicer and then..my fickle minded brain told me i will not be hungry later..so i din ta pao food.. which..turned out to be wrong..coz i was hungry again after that... and the day before i bought more food than i can eat... ish ish ish so anyways..it was cereals and milk..in the morning...(1 am)i liek those cereals too..it ahs marshmellows in it..in alphabeths..i need to learn my abc's...yeah..a good way to learn..though i often get mixed up with the v..it seems to look like a red heart anyways..i have elephant glur on the first two fingers and the thumb of each hand... the marks of my adventure in tryin gto glue something up.. :D anyways..im ending this with...i wish im at tesco..eating egg mayos to my heart's content..

the last entry consists of...my previous entries in another blog...so i just decided to move it here..due to some problems that i am having there...such as changing my nick name.. so i got geram lar..coz it just shows my full name everytime.. so anyways,..as for this page name.. i shall demonstrate it now... PROTEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaa..BOYCOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT....klcc sushi kinggg... aaaaaaaaa they all aa.. ish... so teruk their service alst night when i went man... horrible.. totally horrible the worst was the way they kept pressing my sushi through the plastic to count with their fingers..like helooooo...im going to eat it...so please take your hands away... ish... BUT,,just telling that i am boycotting that place...(not other outlets though) and this is coming from a sushi king egg mayo fan... muahahahahhahahaha *********************************************************** okies.. enough with that im currently berpuasaing too hehehe..with my sleeping schedule gone bonkers..only falling asleep at 6 am..or later.. and waking up at 3 pm bad insomia...got to shake it off soon.. anyways..im currently waiting for my food to appear..i wonder when will it come...(chanting some magical words...) hmmm....i can feel it coming towards me.... it will reach in maybe..30 minutes... its raining at the moment... been raining loads.. the weather sort of...shows my mood... or my recent moods... i was thinking...that girls..are usually very very..critical about another girl..espeacially if she has more...benefits than them... what sort of benefits?? lets say...such as looks,money, and so much more. not to say some are such two faced creatures they tell you something..and then they tell the rest something else..even up to the stage of backstabbing you..and even spreading false accusations of you around.. but i suppose..those are just some girls who have that nature..even guys,though not all of us.. we have to accept that not everyone have good intentions... all right..enough of that already..shall not brood about that anymore.. i know i got some of you worried about me lately.. and i thank you for your concern.. am truly touched with it..:) k's..will write laters..:) hugs..

[11/5/2002 11:06:29 PM ] its..6.21 pm, on a rainy afternoon... i just wrote a song last night... was like..having the inspiration.. and i thought it sounded ok.. till i replayed it again after like 8 hours of creating it.. and it was..erm...grins...a bit sumbang to hear la.. heheheh i think i'd die before letting anyone hear it.. and then now.. come to think of it... i shall keep quiet..and be secretive..and not tell anyone anything (espeacially to ppl who says that " you can trust me) off to dinner now *********************************************************** 10.40 pm all right just came back from dinner..and the bathroom... have any of you guys ever had this...erm..sensation that causes you to take more time to sit on the toilet bowl seat coz itz cold? so you tend to bend down slowly...then have to wait a while before nature takes it'z course? oh well... neways hmm..i went to........*drum rolls...teng teng teng......* SUSHI KING AGAIN...... i ate.....as expected..egg mayos....(note the s behind it) and the waitress(only one of them) commented on my hair...(aya said she heart shirt ..) so i dunno what it is la.. but its hard to say..compliments really makes you feel good i am..coughing now.. sigh...maybe a song on coughing..and the lyrics will be like... ahuk ahuk..cough cough,,,,,, ahuk ahuk couch couch a aa aa aaa aaa HUK grins well..will write laters..:) maybe after i change the interface of this blog of ine(hope what i said is correct) heheheh till then..., THE MOTH WOMAN okie okie just joking... till then, jewel in the making ps: i plan to learn how to ice skate [11/1/2002 4:18:46 PM ] Allright..like i was trying to set the time and stuff to this blog thing.. which i think i managed to do with some help form aya...but anyways..just to update myself here...it is...3.56 on a friday afternoon..so called fine when i can hear those construction noises on my left..and also this thing throbbing in my head.. :( what am i feeling at the moment..bored..sleepy..and definitely hungry.... buahahahaha..i can eat a...aa...a...erm..a whole 20 plates of egg mayo at sushi king....*smiles widely with saliva dripping all over the place* well..dont ask me about my sudden obsession bout it..i';ve always been obsessed with eggs... anyways... im a little broke..since i went shopping at this giodano sale that we had in our campus the other day... like one day of shopping didnt appeal to me..so i went for two days of shopping instead... which i am very happy with.. but it only got my appetite for shopping going.. so sad to say..i want more shopppinggggggggggggggggggggg heheheh all right.. i suppose this will do for my first blog..since i was thinking of maybe doing some stuff to fill in my time before the yo soy betty show starts...(i am a totall...erm..fan for spanish shows..) but i do admit..it gets creepy everytime she gives that weird smile of hers and all..but overall..its interesting to see how they bicker oevr the smallest stuff and all..hahahah so off to a bath i will go.. and i shall be here...when i am here the next time,... till then bueno diaz (hope i got the spelling right)